Before the end of this year......

"Before the end of this year, you will know..." Those words were powerful words to me about 5 years ago .. it was part of a word that God spoke into my spirit ... only for me to hear .... but i lived on it .. breathed it ... interpreted it in all sorts of different ways .... i've told a few ... but tonight .. i was finally confronted.... and I heard those words.... today from a dear friend of mine :) ... and everything came together ..... is there still doubt? ... no ....
I know that God wants us to wait ... patiently ... most times ... but wait none the less.. and we HATE to wait ... so we charter our own course and often time mess things up .... but God has a way of making it all right .. because He DOES order our steps!!!
So now it's up to me to see what, where , when , whhy and how .. since i already know the "Who".
He steps in when we are at our wits end ..or When there we no longer can withstand.

you raise me up .....

Further than the eye can see sometimes we have to look. as far as the east is from the west ... further than we can comprehend is what we have to strain our eyes to see....

it's not always that i am so brave ... sometimes i just choose to see what's right in front of me . and not what i KNOW can be there... that is when i let the devil steal my vision and rob me of the potential that I have. when people dissapoint me ... as they often do .... especially my family .... i want to just say FIYAH for it... but that would only make me lose ... make me fail ... make me give up .... so it is at that time that i have to strain my eyes to see beyond what other people can't .. .and what i know is there...
i can't allow anyone to break my stride... I WONT..... i'm too close now ....
You raise me up Lord .. so that i can walk on mountains.... and that's where i will stride ... !

Sometimes I do silly things :S

2005 on the Sovereign of the Seas

So ...

This was when i was on the ship .. and I had a HUGE helium filled balloon that said .... hmm .. I can't remember .. but it was finally too much for the small cabin and i decided that it was time to deflate it .. but ... Why deflate a helium balloon when u can inhale the helium and have a blast ...

BEWARE .. helium is very light head producing :-).....

have fun .... i found it recently and it brought tears to my eyes .... !!!!

Leaving Nestle.....

This was my last week with this company .. and it has been quite an emotional journey. I traveled to Dominican Republic, knowing that this was going to be the last time that I would be doing this for this company. I can’t believe that I am FINALLY doing what I should have done AGES ago!! .. but it is better late than never.
As I was leaving the hotel in DR, I met up with my ex boss and told her my decision. I had tears in my eyes, mainly because I was sad to leave a woman who had made me think, she had expanded my horizons, she made me rethink where I wanted to be … she challenged me and didn’t baby me. Thanks for that.

As I left the hotel, I realized that this was going to be my last breakfast here and the last time that I was going to see some of the porters. Not that I would miss them .. but I’m moving to another time of my life, another chapter that should be even more interesting and even more exciting – and I’m looking forward to it.

I got into the plane and oddly enough, there was so much that I had wanted to say to people … perhaps give them more of a hug then anything else .. perhaps get a chance to tell them that I was leaving personally . you only have today. What u want to do tomorrow, only turns into today…. We have no tomorrows .. we only have todays … J

So .. onto the next chapter of my life. It’s been 2 years of me doing nothing. Well not doing nothing .. but doing nothing in my standards. I’m looking forward to taking up the next chapter .. and living a more daring life.. a risky life that will bring more ups and downs, more Failures which will be even more wins…. More lessons.

I’m reading the book “Retire young, retire rich” - it is giving so much motivation. And it’s interesting how I can see… people fitting into my life now. I think that I really did think very small , very myopically. But now, I will live bigger, larger , dream the dreams and not only dream them … but chase them… Miles Monroe once said that your gift is your income.. .and it’s true … I have realized that there is much more to the music than just singing … even tho I think that’s a good talent , that’s not where the wealth is … it’s in the song … it’s in the words and it’s in how it will help and bless other people .. and for that I am excited … becoming a singer is just a very selfish road that I may want to walk along … if I do become a singer than that is great .. but the most important part of it .. is the song .. without the song there is no singer … and that is where I hope that I can capitalize on.

So for now … my dream is large … my dream will expand … my God will support me … wings….. and all !